Not even once I was the 1st priority… Hell im not even in the Top 10. The people that I love, im not even important in their lives. For them I just exist.. just there. Im used to be taken for granted, yeah it hurts me so much. Sometimes, there are days when I feel like dying. Maybe nobody will even notice, I bet nobody would even cry. Yeah I have friends, but sometimes I dont really feel that Im important to them. The man that I love, he left me hanging too. I wish someone would atleast care, someone would take time to atleast accompany me. Nobody ever understands . No matter how I try so hard to be the best,nobody cares. Sometimes, I kinda wish I would never wake up. It hurts so much that you dont have a place in anyone’s life. I even forgot how its like to be happy, to smile sincerely. I really wish tonight I would never wake up when I fall asleep. Call me suicidal, or emo, but for me theres really no point in living anymore. My world feels so empty, its all in black and white. The hardest part of living is being alone. Yes, I may have a good life, but I am not happy at all.Everynight, I pray to GOd just please take me, I cant take it anymore.

If you can’t laugh with one joke again and again, then don’t cry for the same reason OVER AND OVER again

You were almost there… just one more step and you would’ve found me

secret garden

Not being able to sleep or eat are just the obvious basics. Falling asleep and waking up are hell too. Because you can’t figure out how you and the person you love are to become strangers. You can’t even complain to other people. Because they may badmouth the person. So you cry alone. It’s ended, we’ve broken up, but only the memories of love comes to mind. But the more you do that, the longer it takes to erase those memories. So to a person who’s been left, 365 days are spent in the process of breaking up. But the thing that really hurts, is that the other person doesn’t even seem to be thinking of you. It feels like it’s just you who can’t let go. That person seems to have forgotten all about you and is just happy. All you want to do is die, but you can’t die either. Because you might never see that person again. It’s like that, the feeling… when you break up.

-yoon seol